Be Like E.T and Phone HOME!
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I am 9 weeks and 5 days into being a Mother. Yep, I count each day. THIS is my babe:
Although I am tempted to drift until I am completely under, all consumed solely by my baby and motherhood, I am committed to not venturing there. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but for me, drifting there would be a turning away from something that is harder to live: my many Desires, my Truth, my Light, my Spirit- motherhood included as one aspect. Plus, I am committed to being the best mother I can be and that requires my joy, my peace, and my own sense of fulfillment.
On a date night recently, Ian and I saw “Elvis.” (It’s incredible. Go see it). I watched as Presley drifted from his heart for logistical reasons, financial reasons, and, well, for the reason of parenthood, too, until his career was “in the toilet.” In order to polish his career and begin again, he is given the advice to do what makes him happy, to go “home,” the place that inspires him. After taking the advice, he once again explosively rises to his Light and touches millions of lives once again and in brand new ways.
It got me thinking. With even greater limitations on “personal time,” and my energy, motherhood is requiring me to get very intentional about how I spend all of my resources. And so I must sit with these questions now more than ever: what lights me up? What brings me joy/ makes me happy? Where is Home for me? The place that recharges me, inspires me? And do I prioritize going there? There is no more time for everything else to come first — the laundry, the paycheck, the cleaning and cooking, the budgeting, the errands — because there will be no time left once I do all of that (and I won’t have completed any of it, anyway).
I know some of these answers, and I’m in inquiry and deeper exploration for others–including trial and error. What feels good, what enhances my energy, pulls me forward? What doesn’t? I’m discovering it all freshly in this brand new context of motherhood.
When is the last time you meditated on what your home is? What lights you up? What makes you truly happy given the limited time we all have? Possibly very recently! And here is the much harder question: when is the last time you went there? Home?
If it’s been a while- will you GO soon? I think we can all probably do what Elvis did- explosively rise to our own light and touch many lives (even if on a different scale)
I LOVE YOU and I want you to be FULL and FREE.